A Wrong Turn in a Dark Wood
Jonathan Geltner’s debut novel explores the dangers of wandering too far off the true way in the search for transcendence.
Review by Liv Ross
Paul Eluard, the French poet and surrealist, once wrote, “There is another world, but it is inside this one.” This is a sentiment that most poets likely resonate with, as we—or at least I—are always seeking to find that inner world and bring it to the surface. The best literature has depths and layers to be plumbed, because it reflects the folds of reality that we navigate on a daily basis. The very best literature helps us learn to navigate these other, inner worlds in our real lives by allowing us to practice doing so in fiction. Jonathan Geltner’s Absolute Music is a novel that does this successfully, albeit inversely: he illustrates the danger inherent in delving too deeply into the other world through the story of a man who begins to destroy his connections to this one.
Absolute Music follows a novelist nicknamed McPhail as he finds himself stymied in his creative, personal, and professional life. In the midst of this slump, memories begin to surface of the sudden death of his childhood love, Hannah, and McPhail begins something like a quest to redeem that loss. He becomes increasingly haunted by Hannah. Versions of her name are borne by new people in his life. Events seem to be connected by dates that match the day of her death. He is drawn to places that lie on the same longitudinal line as their childhood hometown. He experiences a deeply intimate encounter with an adult version of her, although the question lingers as to whether this encounter was a dream or a vision. As McPhail follows these signs of Hannah, as he seeks out her story, his quest draws him further away from his living wife, his new child, and his friends that still remain. His obsession with redeeming a lost past endangers the present that he already has.
Literature lovers will recognize that Geltner draws deeply from Dante’s Divine Comedy in the weaving of his narrative. The novel begins with McPhail standing beneath honey locust trees, feeling lost in his own life and getting lost in the memory of these trees that figure in the day he learned of Hannah’s death. McPhail opens the chapter as if he is standing alone while contemplating the trees, similar to Dante’s awakening alone in the dark wood. It’s not until several paragraphs in that McPhail admits that he is not, in fact, alone: his wife is standing there next to him. Here, early in the story, McPhail has a choice—to follow his wife, who is never actually named in the novel but bears only the nickname Kew, or to follow the memory of Hannah. It quickly becomes clear that McPhail views Hannah as his figure of Beatrice, and so he pursues her with an increasingly single-minded focus.
As he begins to drift deeper into his pursuit of Hannah, the memory of a college friend, Joel Stein, appears. He seems, at first, to fill the role of Virgil. Early on, McPhail credits Joel as his primary encourager in the pursuit of higher learning, which is what leads him in turn to become a teacher and writer. McPhail feels the continued influence of Joel long after their friendship ceases, and he walks with Joel through a dream in which he wrestles with notions of story and reality and Joel’s relationship to his current quest for Hannah. McPhail follows the memory of Joel up through meeting and sleeping with Annette, the aforementioned young woman who bears a version of Hannah’s name.
Geltner shows that there is a way home, no matter how far down the wrong road you’ve gone.
Here a new figure enters the story: Gregory, another childhood friend who was with McPhail the night that Hannah died. The two remained friends throughout growing up, and it becomes clear throughout the story’s progression that Gregory is McPhail’s true Virgil. In what is, in my opinion, one of the most well-thought-out portrayals of a Dungeons & Dragons session in fiction, Gregory leads McPhail and a handful of other friends through an adventure in which a Hannah-like woman’s effect on McPhail’s player character leads to disaster for everyone at the table. Over the course of their game, McPhail is blown away by the coincidental resemblance. A little later, however, Gregory reveals that he had created the character after Hannah purposefully in order to warn McPhail back from the disaster he was already pursuing. Gregory knew the young Hannah, and he has been with McPhail through many of the memories that he has been navigating, (a fact that McPhail himself has forgotten). Gregory’s intervention propels our narrator back onto the path towards the real and living Beatrice that is his wife, and back to the real life with her that he already has. I encourage you to read the novel for yourself to learn just how that goes.
Another literary parallel I spotted in this story is the Biblical book of Jonah. While far from universally agreed upon, it has been posited that the book of Jonah was autobiographical. Jonah is the protagonist of his story, though never quite the hero, and his actions and their consequences are recounted with a deeply critical eye. It is the story of a prophet of God, but it seems to illustrate how not to go about being a prophet of God. Geltner takes a similar approach in Absolute Music. The narrative is framed as an autobiographical account written after the events described in the story, and like Jonah, McPhail is the protagonist, but he makes no claims that he is the hero. As an artist and writer, he tells his tale as a warning to other artists and writers to stay away from the path he pursued. Where Jonah seems to end on a camera pan to the reader—seems to ask whether the reader is sitting under that withered tree with Jonah—Geltner chooses to bring the reader home. Without giving away too much of the ending, Geltner shows that there is a way home, no matter how far down the wrong road you’ve gone.
To end on a personal note, memory and grief are deeply tied to my own writings. My pursuit of poetry and of story is often spurred by a search for the world-behind-the-world which might finally give some purpose and meaning to the tragedies I, myself, have experienced. Like McPhail, I am prone to searching for the transcendent in such a way that it becomes this high and heady thing – a sort of sterile purity – that is for me alone. However, my glimpses of the divine only become generative when wedded to the reality in which I bodily live. As deeply unsettling as it was to read about a character with such similar tendencies to my own, and to witness the havoc those tendencies create when left unchecked, it was also a gift. I need not sacrifice my home, my health, and my loved ones in pursuit of art. It is when my pursuit of art leads me back to them that both it and I become whole, become actual reflections of the true.
Liv Ross is an urban monk, a poet, a birder, and a student of Christian Spirituality. She has been published in Loft Books, The Blue Daisies Journal, The Way Back To Ourselves, Silence and Starsong, Vessels of Light and VoeglinView.
Absolute Music was published by Slant Books on July 1, 2022. You can purchase a copy from the publisher here.